Normal, but Strange

SCREAMS INTO THE SUN

HE THINKS MY AMERICAN NAME SOUNDS PRETTY ;;;; 

  • me: of course of course
  • i'll wait for you to get home to watch haikyuu
  • because i'm a nice person
  • him: Lol
  • What if I juat knock out when I get home
  • me: then i guess i'll wait for you to wake up then >:|
  • him: Lol
  • Now I would feel bad if I knock out
  • me: LOL
  • IT'S OKAY
  • it's no big deal
  • i mostly talk to you about anime anyways
  • no point in watching ahead and waiting
  • him: Lol
  • me: sleep if you're tired geezz
  • him: Well im not tired
  • Anyways
  • me: okay we'll see in a couple hours
#personal  #chat    
  • me: well your schedule isn't so bad still ^^
  • him: Ehhhhh
  • It still aucks
  • Sucks*
  • me: They tend to be very early
  • you get off early though!
  • him: Yea but its early
  • ;^;
  • I cant wake up early
  • me: but you went to work kinda early?!
  • him: Yea and I hate it T.T
  • Never get enough sleep
  • me: hahahaha sleep earlier then
  • duuuh
  • him: Who sleeps early
  • Do you?
  • me: nope
  • too busy talking to you
  • him: Lol my bad
  • Ill stop texting you
  • me: wowow
  • him: Lol
  • me: you're mean
  • : <
  • him: But im keeping you awake
  • me: well i choose to talk to you
  • so too bad
  • him: XD
  • me: i'm keeping you from waking up early
  • should i stop msging you?
  • him: I choose to talk to you too
  • Soooooo
  • It works out
  • Lol
  • me: hahahaa
  • it's settled
  • we are never waking up early
  • him: Yup never

just had the chillest conversation with such a new, great guy friend! ^^ and like there was no awkwardness and we both seemed interested in what each other had to say, it was so great! and he didn’t give off any “I’m interested in you” vibes which I get quite often and it really sucks because I feel uncomfortable :/ SUCH AN AMAZING PLATONIC FRIENDSHIP I LOVE IT 

#personal    

my mom can be a little crazy… i left the house around midnight going to get food from in-n-out and asked if she wanted anything. she wanted an apple pie from mcd’s. i went to in-n-out, ate with my friends inside, and leave before 1am. i went to mcd’s and they told me the apple pies wouldn’t be ready for another ten mins. after paying, my mom calls me asking, “where are you? you weren’t at in-n-out?! what are you up to?!” and i calmly reply, “i ate inside and i am at mcd’s, they said another 5 mins” 

first of all, my mom drove all the way out there without contacting me via phone call… i am almost 100% sure she was trying to catch me in the act “of doing something bad” srsly… and second of all, i was gone for an hour tops, including driving there and back, i don’t see the problem. she never even called me until that point in the mcd’s drive-thru! 

but i mean i’ve been ignorant to her craziness for 17 years and now it’s all hitting me like a brick wall… i know she wants what is best for me but sometimes she does in such a “WTF?!” way… 

like off on another tangent but she always wants me home? BUT WHEN I’M HOME I AM LITERALLY IN MY ROOM, LOCKED AWAY, ON MY LAPTOP 24/7 I SWEAR. we don’t even interact and i mean of course we talk here and there and we aren’t like completely shut away from each as mother/daughter but i swear we have zero contact when i am in my room. she freaks tf out over me sleeping over at other people’s places like 17 year old’s aren’t supposed to do that??!?! she thinks i’m gay if i sleep over at other girl’s places and that it’s a stupid and childish thing to do?! BUT IT WASN’T ALLOWED WHEN I WAS LIKE 10, ASIDE FROM MY BEST FRIEND BECAUSE OUR FAMILIES KNEW EACH OTHER. 

so basically i’m home but we have zero contact and i feel like that’s the same thing as me being out with friends! I ALSO WANT TO MENTION, SHE CALLS ME ON MY CELL AND ASKS WHERE I AM WHEN I AM IN MY ROOM. SHE DOESN’T EVEN KNOW I’M IN HERE SOMETIMES, IT MAKES ME SO FUCKING ?!?!!?1 for one, she’s lazy to check and two, she blows things way out of proportion. 

My winged sweater finally came in the mail the other day!! It was less than $10 including shipping, it was basically free TT^TT since it&#8217;s usually $35-$40 from other sites. I&#8217;ve been wanting this for sooooooo long! It&#8217;s such a casual piece for so many idols and I especially wanted it during the time when Sungyeol released the &#8220;day in the life of a student&#8221; parody video during the She&#8217;s Back promotion time&#160;; u&#160;; I FEEL SO HAPPY WITH MY PURCHASE AHHHHHH &lt;333 

My winged sweater finally came in the mail the other day!! It was less than $10 including shipping, it was basically free TT^TT since it’s usually $35-$40 from other sites. I’ve been wanting this for sooooooo long! It’s such a casual piece for so many idols and I especially wanted it during the time when Sungyeol released the “day in the life of a student” parody video during the She’s Back promotion time ; u ; I FEEL SO HAPPY WITH MY PURCHASE AHHHHHH <333 

yay idk if it’s something special but i think my crush just upgraded me from “night” to “good night!” hehehehe

i feel sad. a little depressed, maybe? 

well i plucked my own eyebrows for the first time and i thought getting light eyebrows would be cool but now it looks like i have a bare-makeupless face :( i miss my old eyebrows… i mean it’s hair and it’ll grow back but still… iamsad

finished most of my ed cosplay, i just need to sew the hood and symbol now. the symbol is what scares me… i have to first perfectly draw it and cut it. and then i have to sew it neatly on the coat?!?! so stressed because i want it to look amazing but i don’t believe my skill level can make it out the way i want it to… 

i have to go pick up my bleach from my friend’s house tomorrow without her there cause she’s in another city. but encounters with vietnamese parents make me very very anxious and i don’t like feeling that feeling. like just thinking about it makes me feel so :< but i’m sure i’ll be fine it’s just the feeling leading up to it. then there’s the actual re-dying of roots… 

anyways i talked to the crush tonight and we chatted for a good 2 hours. although i’m sure he has no interest in me romantically, i think he doesn’t find me boring because he continues to talk to me which makes me happy! he’s always asking personal questions which makes me think he cares about me and/or is curious about me? c: also i told him i liked his hair from the other meeting but i didn’t want to sound all “o 3 o” and tried to remotely compliment him and he passed it off quickly which makes me happy. 

My FullMetal Alchemist Cosplay Progress!

pushing through with edward elric in time for stocktoncon this saturday, i’m exhausted, night guys! 

my edward elric cosplay spending (this is just a note to self because yeah)

(prices below include coupons)
red/black fabrics = $20
bias tape = $2
thread = $2
pleather = $1
metal snaps = $4
belt = $11
spent so far: $40

(prices below don’t include coupons)
snap tool = $??
more bias tape = $2
white gloves = $9
more metal snaps = $7
craft foam = $4
estimated amt to be spent later today: $22-$30

total spent on fma cosplay: $73 sigh

white fabric to make gloves = $3
snap tool = $3
more bias tape = $2
more metal snaps = $4
craft foam = $1
spent today: $13

spent in total: $53!!! :> 

gotta buy velcro later today but looks like I will only end up spending less than $60 on this cosplay WOO

spent $55!!! :>